twelve. spam & voice. the sound when we come running. ( backdated post-port. )

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voice } helena ( backdated )

Did you die? Did you kill anyone? [These seem like the two most likely options.]

voice } lydia ( backdated )

You got separated. You should learn self-defense. [This vaguely reproachful, which is a coded way of saying god that sucked, are you okay.]

voice } elsa ( present dated )

[She waits to get in touch with Elsa, who seems as easily overwhelmed as Vin was herself, not very long ago. Still, the desire to check in nags at her, and eventually she gives in.]

I'm worried about you. [It's simultaneously frank, honest, and very forward, but it seems like the right thing to say all the same.]

spam } stark ( backdated )

[She has been texting him incessantly and, of course, he hasn't been responding. She doesn't know why she's surprised. But she knows where to find him, at least. In the bar or in his cabin.]

[The bar's almost empty and he's not in there, so she slips up to his room and opens the door before he can voice an objection. Her look is steely; she knows he's done something or he wouldn't be avoiding her, but she doesn't know what.]

Why are you hiding?

open spam } present dated

[Today Vin is in the art room - or rather, the annex off of the art room that holds the piano. She is sitting at it, but not playing it, because she doesn't know how to. Instead, she is considering it, leafing through the music that she found in its bench, and arranging it in various patterns across the keyboard in an effort to make sense of it.]

[So far she hasn't had any luck, but she seems absorbed in her work. It's like learning a foreign language with no guide whatsoever. She can't help but imagine Sazed would be fascinated.]

Comments

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[She smiles at that, soft if not quite sweet. She's still too worried - too concerned - to be entirely kind, which is a trial for her at the best of times. But it's nice to know she's a pain in his ass.]

Do you think all these smart people would waste our time on you if it wasn't worth it? All these pains in your ass?

[She knows he knows better. Somewhere under the bluster and the alcohol and the self-loathing, he's smarter than that. He's one of the smartest idiots she's ever known.]

[But he doesn't want to let go. That's the biggest thing, getting him to let go of his own sense of worthlessness, his own sense of monsterhood. She was a monster once. She didn't know how freeing it was not to be one until, all of a sudden, she let herself be human. Be Mistborn. Be a girl.]

[Stark is human - angel - Sub Rosa - Sandman Slim - he is all of these things. He is not simple. And she loves him for that. Someday, he'll love himself just a little for it, too.]

[outofclothes]

[Vin does this a lot with Stark, he's starting to notice. Every time he thinks he might stand a chance, she still finds a way to back him into this kind of corner. It's not something that's done aggressively. He's never coerced. Vin goes about it quietly and while not always kind, not always soft, there's still something gentle about it. It's not what he's used to. Even when he knows it's what she's doing and he can see it coming, he still doesn't know how to respond.]

[He's pretty sure she knows that, too.]

They say there's a fine line between genius and insanity, you know.

[So he just falls back on bullshitting and bluffing his way through it, something that can either be read as message received (if not entirely accepted) or message ignored.]

[indispensible]

[Vin puts her head in her hand, just for a moment. He's going to give her a headache, and she doesn't even get headaches.]

What's the word for when you say something deliberately unrelated to be distracting?

[Because that's what he's doing. That's what he always does, when he doesn't know how to respond.]

[It's okay. It's even a little sweet. More than that, it's just - a Stark thing.]

[outofclothes]

That would be the fine art of deflecting.

[One of the few things he's really, really good at that doesn't involve blood loss.]

[Usually.]

Is it working?

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Deflecting. Yes.

[She rolls her eyes at him, but she's smiling, too. Instead of punching him. You're welcome, Stark.]

It's about half working. [Meaning she knows what he's doing but she'll let him get away with it. For now.]

[outofclothes]

[Not that he doesn't rightfully deserve a punch, he's not going to be caught complaining.]

Half, completely...it's almost the same thing in my books.